As I run my fingers
Through your hair
I wonder
Whether when I reach the tips…
I should let them slip gently through my fingers
Or curl my fingers in your hair
At the base of the skull
And give a sharp tug.
To release tension at the roots

When I touch your body
Should I be gentle, delicate, sensitive?
Or strong, harsh
Or perhaps even brutal?

What is best
Do I need to soothe the pain
Or relieve it…
By taking in the hurt
By giving the hurt
The credence and acknowledgement
It is demanding?

Taking that fucking darkness
And allowing it expression
So it can go away,
Be released
For now
Even if not forever

– Judi Reed, 2015